Showing posts with label inspiration. Show all posts
Showing posts with label inspiration. Show all posts
11.23.2012
Hiatus
Today Daisy and I are off for our two week road trip from San Francisco to Las Vegas!
After a rough quarter that had me feeling extremely overwhelmed, I'm more than ready to hit the open road and see what adventures traveling has in store for us this time.
One of the best parts about embarking on a new journey is the chance to disconnect, reflect and have different experiences than what you know in your day to day. I have reached a point that I really need to do all of these things and figure out where I'm heading.
Sans laptop, I'm heading to California to tune into myself and find what I really want this balance to be all about.
All I know is that it will definitely always involve travel. There is nothing better than going out to explore the unknown. Except maybe coming back home to share it with everyone you miss while you're gone.
I'll be back to share soon!
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11.05.2012
Overwhelmed
Over the past few weeks--maybe even months--I haven't been feeling quite like myself. Some of my actions have caused me to second guess what I'm doing and where my life is headed.
When all of my friends were freaking out about graduation last year, I rest assured knowing I still had the bonus year of my 5-year Master's Program to look forward to. But now that time seems to be ticking away faster than I can keep up and there's only two quarters left of my college career, it's my turn to panic.
The worst part about all of this added stress is the fact that it seems to be self-inflicted. Of course school brings on all of its regular moans and groans, but all of my outside worries and fears seem to stem from my own mistakes and self-created anxieties.
Take for instance, trying to change my major with only two quarters left of school. Prompted by my video and multimedia work at RedEye, I decided to take broadcast journalism for a spin. I learned quickly that this is not the kind of thing you can just dive into!
Luckily I figured out it wasn't for me before I got too involved and have since decided to refocus my efforts back to print/online journalism with an emphasis in multimedia storytelling techniques & blogging. Since this realization, I've been a lot more centered and am looking forward to applying for new internships in freelance travel writing and web producing for Winter Quarter.
Beyond the professional, my personal life has also become a cause of stress and uncertainty. In this crazy transition stage of my life, I feel like I'm at a crossroads with what I want for myself and unfortunately, I was dragging someone else along on that roller coaster ride far longer than he ever deserved to be on board.
While I don't regret any minute of our beautiful time together, I know that to truly get better and find my way, I need to take some time to tune into myself. It's time to breathe and reboot--all by myself.
There is still no certainty for what life has in store, but I'm looking forward to keeping calm & carrying on with whatever comes my way.
10.16.2012
Color Me... Navy
10.11.2012
2012 Chicago Marathon - Owned Chicago.
{"Did you ever think you would run 26 miles?" - Brad}
26.2 to be exact. Marathon: Check that one off the Bucket List!
After a night of tossing and turning with dreams of my bones breaking through my legs and every other thought of what could possibly go wrong, I awoke for the marathon at 5:30 am feeling anxious and underprepared.
For months I promised I would finally buckle down and discipline myself, strictly sticking to my training schedule and turning down nights out with friends in exchange for sleep and early morning runs. When that didn't quite happen as often as it should have, I had major feelings of self-doubt and almost felt like I didn't deserve to finish the race.
Funny how doubt and fear can play games with your head.
When Brad and I finally reached the starting line after freezing the morning away waiting for Wave 2 to begin, we were more than ready to JUST DO IT.
Dodging the piles of clothes that people had stripped off just before the race started, we found our stride and weaved our way in and out of the massive crowd of bobbing heads and determined racers.
Through the first few miles my stomach was feeling uneasy, most likely the result of pending nerves and hunger from my inability to eat anything more than a cup of peach yogurt with granola and a few bites of a bagel topped with peanut butter and bananas earlier that morning.
With the help of some Gu, multiple Gatorade/H20 breaks and our awesome 2-man cheering squad (shout out to Mom and Will!) following us around the course, we held a steady pace and didn't stop to walk until we hit Mile 17.
Thanks to the slanted road and throngs of runners that never really thinned out throughout the entire race, Brad started to experience a lot of pain in his knee. We ran miles 17-22 much slower than our original pace, but with the thousands of people cheering us on, stopping never seemed like an option.
By the time we hit 22.5, Brad looked at me and told me to go on. The pain was getting to be too much and he knew he couldn't keep up with the half-shuffle run we had going. Strangely, it hurt way more for me to walk than it did to run, so we split up for the first time with the promise to meet back at Mile 25 where Will and my mom were waiting.
Hitting the 20 mark, there was no question as to whether or not I was going to finish. The worst was still to come, but after making it that far, there was no way I wouldn't push through the final 6 miles.
23-24 was probably my fastest mile of the whole race. The course had finally opened up a bit so I wasn't constantly zig-zagging throughout the crowd and I was so determined to reach the familiar faces waiting for me for that extra push of motivation that is all so necessary in those times of mental and physical trial.
A wave of emotion sent tears to my eyes when I passed a sign saying, "You just owned Chicago." The physical pain combined with the mental weight of what I had just accomplished set in and I couldn't believe how strong I felt after feeling like I had prepared too little.
When Brad and I finally reached the starting line after freezing the morning away waiting for Wave 2 to begin, we were more than ready to JUST DO IT.
Dodging the piles of clothes that people had stripped off just before the race started, we found our stride and weaved our way in and out of the massive crowd of bobbing heads and determined racers.
Through the first few miles my stomach was feeling uneasy, most likely the result of pending nerves and hunger from my inability to eat anything more than a cup of peach yogurt with granola and a few bites of a bagel topped with peanut butter and bananas earlier that morning.
With the help of some Gu, multiple Gatorade/H20 breaks and our awesome 2-man cheering squad (shout out to Mom and Will!) following us around the course, we held a steady pace and didn't stop to walk until we hit Mile 17.
{Brad starting to feel the pain at Mile 17}
Thanks to the slanted road and throngs of runners that never really thinned out throughout the entire race, Brad started to experience a lot of pain in his knee. We ran miles 17-22 much slower than our original pace, but with the thousands of people cheering us on, stopping never seemed like an option.
By the time we hit 22.5, Brad looked at me and told me to go on. The pain was getting to be too much and he knew he couldn't keep up with the half-shuffle run we had going. Strangely, it hurt way more for me to walk than it did to run, so we split up for the first time with the promise to meet back at Mile 25 where Will and my mom were waiting.
Hitting the 20 mark, there was no question as to whether or not I was going to finish. The worst was still to come, but after making it that far, there was no way I wouldn't push through the final 6 miles.
23-24 was probably my fastest mile of the whole race. The course had finally opened up a bit so I wasn't constantly zig-zagging throughout the crowd and I was so determined to reach the familiar faces waiting for me for that extra push of motivation that is all so necessary in those times of mental and physical trial.
A wave of emotion sent tears to my eyes when I passed a sign saying, "You just owned Chicago." The physical pain combined with the mental weight of what I had just accomplished set in and I couldn't believe how strong I felt after feeling like I had prepared too little.
Far under my expected time of 5:30, I reached Mile 25 at 4:16. Waiting with my mom and Will, my heart sank when Brad hobbled up with tears in his eyes about 15 minutes later. I knew the pain had to be deep to break my strong step dad.
"Let's do this together," I said, taking his arm and deflecting any comments that he was sorry for slowing me down. I didn't sign up for this race to beat a record or get the fastest time. There was no way I could have gotten through this experience without him and crossing the finish line together made all the pain and doubt worth it.
{Showered & clean--but definitely still sore! Photo by Candice}
Photos by Mom and Brad
10.04.2012
Marathon Training: Discipline
I will run this track in 3 days. Holy shit.
As I was showing my friends the "everything you need to know" guide to the marathon yesterday, I started getting extremely nervous. 26 fucking miles.
Admittedly, my longest run has only been 15 miles. Tried to make 20 happen and it just didn't get there. I've told that to a few runners and they look at me with that, "Ooooh, well I'm sure you'll be okay..." judgmental face and all my confidence goes out the window.
This got me thinking about discipline. Have I not tried hard enough? Would I be nervous if I had stuck exactly to the plan?
I've never been the most disciplined person. I knew that would be my biggest struggle in completing this marathon, but I was determined to work hard and maybe, finally be an organized, put together and all-around "better" person.
Turns out I'm still kind of a hot mess. Well, a little better than that, but definitely still a work in progress. Not just in running, but kind of in life in general. I always feel like I could be doing better, that I should be disciplining myself more and constantly working towards being that perfectly-balanced person I, oh so badly, want to become.
Said person, do you even exist?
But I always seem to give into those little indulgences. As hard as I've tried to condition my life to fit in all of these things that I think I'm supposed to do, I always seem to give into the impulses and temptations that surround me every day. There's always some justification--"I have a lot of work to do today; I'll just run extra long tomorrow," or "I mean [random friend] only turns 23 once, I suppose I can go out for a drink and finish this assignment after"--that leads me away from the written out plan I like to call my to-do list.
Some people question how I manage to do everything I do. How do I fit in so much?
So why do I never feel like I'm doing enough? Always my own toughest critic.
To keep myself positive these next few days, I need to stay focused on the reason why I decided to do this in the first place.
Working at the finish line for the 2011 marathon, I saw people in every shape, color and size cross that line. Blind people; disabled people; even people with no legs at all.
It was one of the single most inspirational things I have ever seen and apparently it turned me into a crazy person because it was that day that I decided I'm going to cross that finish line too.
9.13.2012
Awakening
Lightening Wrap
Awakening | Change | Fate
"A symbol of power and sudden breakthrough, lightening represents a swift awakening. Adorn yourself with the Lightening Wrap to initiate change, mark destiny, and address chance happenings."
7.31.2012
Disconnected
In transition from moving from the North side to the West, I have been without the Internet at home for the past two and a half weeks.
Quite prehistoric, I know.
But it's actually been a bit of a blessing in disguise. Not for keeping up with my blog posts or working on any of the redesign that I'm trying to do on the site, but for making memories, finding inspiration and taking a break from the constantly connected world that we live in, no Internet has been a godsend.
This is what I've done instead of staring at my computer for hours on end...
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Quite prehistoric, I know.
But it's actually been a bit of a blessing in disguise. Not for keeping up with my blog posts or working on any of the redesign that I'm trying to do on the site, but for making memories, finding inspiration and taking a break from the constantly connected world that we live in, no Internet has been a godsend.
This is what I've done instead of staring at my computer for hours on end...
- Started learning how to play my guitar. I've been trying to dive into it all summer, but the lure of a TV show I missed or a blog post I needed to write always seemed to get in the way. Finally, I have started to make a dent and can play a pretty mean Ode to Joy...
- Stopped caring what people think so much. It's so easy to get caught up in your online persona--always making sure you have the deepest status update, wittiest tweet or coolest photo on Instagram. While my iPhone has still kept me pretty connected through social media, the lack of Internet has allowed me to take a step back and realize the people directly around me, in real, day-to-day life, are actually pretty darn good at offering "likes" without a computer screen in-between.
- Made an abundance of delicious, homemade meals. Funny when you stop spending hour after hour on Pinterest, you actutally have the time to make some of the recipes...
- Got to genuinely know an old and new friend. Last night, my friend Rissi who has been staying with me since my former roomie moved out looked at me and said, "I think I finally got to know Amanda Boleman." I looked at her a little quizzically as we've known each other for 4 years, but then it dawned on me that without all sorts of technology getting in the way, we really had time to sit down and actually talk. We didn't talk about what the latest hot celebrity just tweeted or share funny videos on YouTube--we simply sat and spoke about our lives day in and day out without the option of the Internet or TV dragging us in and zoning us out. Even when we had the choice to stay over at her friend (and now mine!) Josh's place with working Internet (okay, admittedly we did that ONCE after an evening of playing guitar and cooking dinner at mine), Josh would usually come over and join our no-Internet/Cable party instead and now I have an awesome new friend to show for it.
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7.26.2012
Island Escape: Short Story
I came across this short story I wrote back in high school when I was at home a few weeks ago and was inspired by the detail and honesty my writing used to have.
Sometimes I feel like studying journalism has sucked out a lot of my creativity, always focusing on the who, what, where, when and why and leaving out the flair and pizzazz saved for descriptive writing. This piece was not only a blast from the past that brought me back to a place that I absolutely loved, but it was also a reminder that I do have the ability to write in different forms and I definitely want to start exploring that side again...
The Island, our extraordinary refuge, appeared in our lives just when the storm was becoming almost too much to handle. In the awkward girl-to-woman transition, the too-young-to-drive-so-you-bike- everywhere, braces-wearing and pimple-popping summer between middle school and high school, I never thought I would find inner serenity in such an odd place.
On the days that our parents wouldn't take us to the beach or drive us to the mall no matter how hard we begged, my best friend and I would jump on our trusty mountain bikes and hit the open sidewalk. Trips around the lake and to our favorite picnic destinations were frequent pastimes, but after we found The Island, it became the only place our little legs would pedal to.
"Just get out!" her mom screamed as I watched my usually collected and strong best friend break down before my eyes. I knew that we needed to get out of there--quick. Before I could change my mind, I hastily grabbed her and marched out of the house. Climbing on top of our bikes, we started to speed away. Without looking back, we burned holes in the pavement with our psychotically swift, cycling legs, and made the cars look like snails in comparison to our increasing momentum. We didn't know where we were going, but wherever it was, we wanted to get there fast.
Arriving at our regularly traveled bike trail, we decided to give our exhausted limbs a rest. We plummeted down the monstrous hill leading through a woodsy path with nothing but the sun on our faces and the brisk air blowing our hair in the breeze. When we reached the bottom of the seemingly endless drop-off, we plopped down on the wildly-growing grass and she wiped away the last tear escaping down her pink, wind-blown cheek. After observing the area that we had grown so familiar with, we noticed a stomped-down pathway of grass through the trees and plants. My friend's once painfully sad eyes sparkled up at me, as if we were French explorers discovering uncharted land. With our curiosity and adventurous minds going to work, we embarked on a journey deep into the woods to find where the unknown path would lead us.
As we pushed through the jungle of branches, shrubs poked out in every direction, putting baby scratches all over our scantily-clad legs, and swarms of Minnesota-summer mosquitoes circled our heads, leaving their signature mark of itchy red bumps. We could hear rushing water in the creek that ran parallel to the path, making the trail feel damp and moist. Just when we got fed up and groaned in unison, "Let's go back," the path suddenly opened up to reveal what would become our secret haven--The Island.
Abruptly, Rice Creek came into view, and the rampant water whooshed by at an incalculable rate. My eyes were drawn to a colossal tree that had fallen across the creek and managed to wedge itself between trees on the opposite side of the rapids. Creating a natural bridge to an adjacent sand dune, the tree seemed purposefully placed to create a secluded island in the middle of the woods. The rich green leaves of the broken tree and the clear, raging stream formed the most beautiful disaster I had ever seen.
From that day on, we visited The Island as often as we could. This special spot enabled us to be anything that we wanted to be--researchers doing experiments in the wild, washed up boat passengers stranded on a desert island, or just huge-hearted fifteen year-old girls who needed a place to call their very own. No matter how bad the family situation, or how much it hurt to watch a gangly crush clumsily tongue another girl, The Island remained an escape from the harsh realities that we were forced to deal with day after day. For that entire summer, I had a sanctuary to share that could put me at peace with anything, but especially with myself.
After high school began, the friendship I once knew slowly became a distant memory of days wasted away splashing around in the creek, lying on the sand and talking about our big dreams. I went back to The Island the following summer with a new group of girlfriends, only to find that the sturdy bridge was now nothing but a log being shoved out with the current as if it had never been there at all. A traitor to its own land, the water that provided not only beauty but also endless hours of entertainment and recklessness seemed to have swallowed The Island whole. This left the sand bar as nothing but a thin line of dirt and shells with carlessly thrown trash and beer bottles polluting the once immaculate earth that had served as a prime spot for laying out and working on my summer glow.
To this day, I still believe the loss of that friendship caused a tiny piece of The Island to die, and without that piece, it could never be the same again. Although The Island's reassuring environment and peaceful nature could only be enjoyed for that sole summer, I will never forget the tranquility it brought me, or the friendship that died by its side.
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Sometimes I feel like studying journalism has sucked out a lot of my creativity, always focusing on the who, what, where, when and why and leaving out the flair and pizzazz saved for descriptive writing. This piece was not only a blast from the past that brought me back to a place that I absolutely loved, but it was also a reminder that I do have the ability to write in different forms and I definitely want to start exploring that side again...
Island Escape
The Island, our extraordinary refuge, appeared in our lives just when the storm was becoming almost too much to handle. In the awkward girl-to-woman transition, the too-young-to-drive-so-you-bike- everywhere, braces-wearing and pimple-popping summer between middle school and high school, I never thought I would find inner serenity in such an odd place.
On the days that our parents wouldn't take us to the beach or drive us to the mall no matter how hard we begged, my best friend and I would jump on our trusty mountain bikes and hit the open sidewalk. Trips around the lake and to our favorite picnic destinations were frequent pastimes, but after we found The Island, it became the only place our little legs would pedal to.
"Just get out!" her mom screamed as I watched my usually collected and strong best friend break down before my eyes. I knew that we needed to get out of there--quick. Before I could change my mind, I hastily grabbed her and marched out of the house. Climbing on top of our bikes, we started to speed away. Without looking back, we burned holes in the pavement with our psychotically swift, cycling legs, and made the cars look like snails in comparison to our increasing momentum. We didn't know where we were going, but wherever it was, we wanted to get there fast.
Arriving at our regularly traveled bike trail, we decided to give our exhausted limbs a rest. We plummeted down the monstrous hill leading through a woodsy path with nothing but the sun on our faces and the brisk air blowing our hair in the breeze. When we reached the bottom of the seemingly endless drop-off, we plopped down on the wildly-growing grass and she wiped away the last tear escaping down her pink, wind-blown cheek. After observing the area that we had grown so familiar with, we noticed a stomped-down pathway of grass through the trees and plants. My friend's once painfully sad eyes sparkled up at me, as if we were French explorers discovering uncharted land. With our curiosity and adventurous minds going to work, we embarked on a journey deep into the woods to find where the unknown path would lead us.
As we pushed through the jungle of branches, shrubs poked out in every direction, putting baby scratches all over our scantily-clad legs, and swarms of Minnesota-summer mosquitoes circled our heads, leaving their signature mark of itchy red bumps. We could hear rushing water in the creek that ran parallel to the path, making the trail feel damp and moist. Just when we got fed up and groaned in unison, "Let's go back," the path suddenly opened up to reveal what would become our secret haven--The Island.
Abruptly, Rice Creek came into view, and the rampant water whooshed by at an incalculable rate. My eyes were drawn to a colossal tree that had fallen across the creek and managed to wedge itself between trees on the opposite side of the rapids. Creating a natural bridge to an adjacent sand dune, the tree seemed purposefully placed to create a secluded island in the middle of the woods. The rich green leaves of the broken tree and the clear, raging stream formed the most beautiful disaster I had ever seen.
From that day on, we visited The Island as often as we could. This special spot enabled us to be anything that we wanted to be--researchers doing experiments in the wild, washed up boat passengers stranded on a desert island, or just huge-hearted fifteen year-old girls who needed a place to call their very own. No matter how bad the family situation, or how much it hurt to watch a gangly crush clumsily tongue another girl, The Island remained an escape from the harsh realities that we were forced to deal with day after day. For that entire summer, I had a sanctuary to share that could put me at peace with anything, but especially with myself.
After high school began, the friendship I once knew slowly became a distant memory of days wasted away splashing around in the creek, lying on the sand and talking about our big dreams. I went back to The Island the following summer with a new group of girlfriends, only to find that the sturdy bridge was now nothing but a log being shoved out with the current as if it had never been there at all. A traitor to its own land, the water that provided not only beauty but also endless hours of entertainment and recklessness seemed to have swallowed The Island whole. This left the sand bar as nothing but a thin line of dirt and shells with carlessly thrown trash and beer bottles polluting the once immaculate earth that had served as a prime spot for laying out and working on my summer glow.
To this day, I still believe the loss of that friendship caused a tiny piece of The Island to die, and without that piece, it could never be the same again. Although The Island's reassuring environment and peaceful nature could only be enjoyed for that sole summer, I will never forget the tranquility it brought me, or the friendship that died by its side.
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5.31.2012
A Poem for the Enlightened
A couple of weeks ago, these beautiful words arrived on my doorstep. At the time, I wasn't ready to hear them and didn't want to confront the loaded meanings behind each emotion.
I'm still not quite sure what to make of it all, but I do know that when something stirs you, it is meant to be shared. And I want to thank the person who shared this with me & for all of the memories behind your wonderfully crafted words.
What does it mean to be human? Is it our capacity for thought? Or our ability to transmit our wisdom to future generations?
Surely these are parts of it, but there is so much more to man than the mind.
There is always the heart and soul, and it is from these that feelings derive. Feelings of love, hurt, happiness and courage. Indeed it is through these emotions that we become human.
Love. The most beautiful of emotions. Love is the feeling one gets when they look into another and their heart jumps; the rush of energy from ones' soul to another as their lips touch; the feeling of safety one finds in their lover.But it is much more than just a relationship with another.
But love is also about hurt. The hurt that comes from realizing mistakes, taking the beauties of life for granted and feeling as if a hole has been torn right through the self. This pain we all surely know and it is the worst pain one can endure. But it is also part of what makes us human--pushing us to learn, cope and most importantly, feel. It is out of this pain that one learns about themselves: who they've been, who they want to be, and who they want to be with. And it is through this pain that one again finds happiness.
Happiness is the feeling one gets when they allow themselves to truly love and hurt. Happiness is the appreciation one feels for all that has happened, through happy and sad, and is brave enough to even thank the hurt. True happiness is when someone becomes so comfortable with their self that they can share their happiness with another, never losing themselves in the process. Happiness is the courage to do what needs to be done to awake the love and hurt in another, knowing it will not be easy.
Courage is both the least and most important of emotions. For one must be courageous enough to fight the good fight but also to know when to let the fight go. One must be courageous enough to look back on the past and smile, no matter how bad it hurts.
Courage is the understanding that life goes on.
Images via 1, 2, 3, 4
I'm still not quite sure what to make of it all, but I do know that when something stirs you, it is meant to be shared. And I want to thank the person who shared this with me & for all of the memories behind your wonderfully crafted words.
What does it mean to be human? Is it our capacity for thought? Or our ability to transmit our wisdom to future generations?
Surely these are parts of it, but there is so much more to man than the mind.
There is always the heart and soul, and it is from these that feelings derive. Feelings of love, hurt, happiness and courage. Indeed it is through these emotions that we become human.
Love. The most beautiful of emotions. Love is the feeling one gets when they look into another and their heart jumps; the rush of energy from ones' soul to another as their lips touch; the feeling of safety one finds in their lover.Love is the witnessing of the beauty that surrounds us every day, through good and bad, found in oneself and all the places one can imagine. For if one fails to recognize this, one truly forgets what it is to love.
But love is also about hurt. The hurt that comes from realizing mistakes, taking the beauties of life for granted and feeling as if a hole has been torn right through the self. This pain we all surely know and it is the worst pain one can endure. But it is also part of what makes us human--pushing us to learn, cope and most importantly, feel. It is out of this pain that one learns about themselves: who they've been, who they want to be, and who they want to be with. And it is through this pain that one again finds happiness.
Happiness is the feeling one gets when they allow themselves to truly love and hurt. Happiness is the appreciation one feels for all that has happened, through happy and sad, and is brave enough to even thank the hurt. True happiness is when someone becomes so comfortable with their self that they can share their happiness with another, never losing themselves in the process. Happiness is the courage to do what needs to be done to awake the love and hurt in another, knowing it will not be easy.Courage is both the least and most important of emotions. For one must be courageous enough to fight the good fight but also to know when to let the fight go. One must be courageous enough to look back on the past and smile, no matter how bad it hurts.
Courage is the understanding that life goes on.
Images via 1, 2, 3, 4
5.23.2012
School Stress Squashers
Week 9 (of 10; 11 including finals) already?! When did that happen?
The last few weeks of school have come up so quickly... I can barely believe I'm going to be walking across a stage to collect my college diploma in 18 days.
And I can't believe all the work I have standing between me and that day!
Not sure whether the teachers waited until the end to pile on the work or if I've just been putting it off myself since my fellow seniors can't seem to stop enticing me with fun that feels like freshman year all over again.
Whatever the case, the pressure is on and the beautiful sunshine is making it that much harder to pay attention.
Here are a few things that are keeping me sane throughout all of this school stress...
The last few weeks of school have come up so quickly... I can barely believe I'm going to be walking across a stage to collect my college diploma in 18 days.
And I can't believe all the work I have standing between me and that day!
Not sure whether the teachers waited until the end to pile on the work or if I've just been putting it off myself since my fellow seniors can't seem to stop enticing me with fun that feels like freshman year all over again.
Whatever the case, the pressure is on and the beautiful sunshine is making it that much harder to pay attention.
Here are a few things that are keeping me sane throughout all of this school stress...
Knowing that my best friend Paige is going to be here next Thursday to visit for the weekend!
{How can these guys not make you smile?} {Champagne on a Sunday}
{Cubs games and craziness}
And especially getting work done at Savor the Flavor, my new favorite homework spot in Lincoln Park. The Build-Your-Own Grilled Cheese & Iced Chai were exactly the fuel I needed to get things checked off the seemingly never-ending to-do list.
Puppy Image via 1
Puppy Image via 1
5.18.2012
Serendipity
The past few weeks have been an exciting influx of new faces & places.
That's the the thing about closing a door -- it usually leads to the opening of many more.
And things just seem to sneak up on you when you least expect it. I feel like I'm back in kindergarden again, making new friends wherever I go and learning so much about different ways of thinking and all the crazy ways people are going about their lives.
Serendipity has always been one of my favorite words (yes, admittedly after seeing that uber-cheesy Kate Beckinsale & John Cusack movie), but the idea of spontaneously coming across amazing things has always been so romantic to me and I've been lucky enough to experience serendipity in a number of different situations.
Sometimes the best things just happen when you aren't even looking.
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5.14.2012
Balance is Beautiful
Paging through The Five Book by Dave Zadra, I came across this little reminder to stay balanced.
Definitely needed this inspiration on a Monday! P.S. Don't mind my alien thumb...
5.09.2012
Finding a Balance...
...is a hell of a lot harder than I want it to be.
As much as you try to plan things out and find a happy medium between everything, there is no denying that life just likes to get in the way sometimes.
Whether it's midterms or a tough break-up, it's very easy to lose focus of everything you set out to do.
This post is more for myself than anything...just to give some perspective into what I truly want to do and what kind of balance I actually want to have.
With four full weeks left of my undergrad career, I'm not as concerned with planning out every detail quite yet--it is the season for grad parties, tough finals and goodbyes after all.
But when summer hits, I've got some big goals (including really getting this blog to take off!) and I wanted to share them so I'd maybe have some sort of standard to hold myself to...
Running
My no bull-shit, stop-making-excuses training start day is quickly approaching (June 11) and I will truly have to dedicate myself to getting in shape for the Chicago Marathon in October. I'm kind of nervous seeing as how my true laziness has really shown itself these last couple months, but I just have to keep my eye on the end goal!

RedEye
Landing this internship at the RedEye is an absolute dream come true! I can't wait to continue growing as a writer at a publication that I love to read.
Build a Balance
This baby has been in the works for quite awhile and I'm excited to have more time to pour my heart&soul into it.
This beautiful guitar taunts me day in and day out. All I want is to be able to pick it up and belt something out, but it usually ends in me walking away with disgust because I don't even know where to begin.
Also under music, I'm including: FESTIVALS. Definitely going to need some fun to add into the balance. I already have tickets to Lollapalooza (first-timer!) and need to get on snagging a pass for Spring Awakening too!
Along with these core-four, I can't wait to see what else the summer has in store...
As much as you try to plan things out and find a happy medium between everything, there is no denying that life just likes to get in the way sometimes.
Whether it's midterms or a tough break-up, it's very easy to lose focus of everything you set out to do.
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With four full weeks left of my undergrad career, I'm not as concerned with planning out every detail quite yet--it is the season for grad parties, tough finals and goodbyes after all.
But when summer hits, I've got some big goals (including really getting this blog to take off!) and I wanted to share them so I'd maybe have some sort of standard to hold myself to...
GETTIN' IT TOGETHER - SUMMER 2012
My no bull-shit, stop-making-excuses training start day is quickly approaching (June 11) and I will truly have to dedicate myself to getting in shape for the Chicago Marathon in October. I'm kind of nervous seeing as how my true laziness has really shown itself these last couple months, but I just have to keep my eye on the end goal!

RedEye
Landing this internship at the RedEye is an absolute dream come true! I can't wait to continue growing as a writer at a publication that I love to read.
Build a Balance
This baby has been in the works for quite awhile and I'm excited to have more time to pour my heart&soul into it.
Music
This beautiful guitar taunts me day in and day out. All I want is to be able to pick it up and belt something out, but it usually ends in me walking away with disgust because I don't even know where to begin.
Not only am I dying to learn, but I also kind of owe it to my family seeing as how my Dad owns a guitar shop...it's just kind of shameful that I can't play.
With a little extra free-time that won't have to be spent doing homework (ooh sweet summertime), I definitely want NEED to dedicate it to learning how to play this bad boy.
Also under music, I'm including: FESTIVALS. Definitely going to need some fun to add into the balance. I already have tickets to Lollapalooza (first-timer!) and need to get on snagging a pass for Spring Awakening too!
Along with these core-four, I can't wait to see what else the summer has in store...
4.17.2012
build a balance
In the days of kings and queens I was a jester.
They treat me like a god,
oh they treat me like a leper.
See me move back and forth between both.
I'm trying to find a balance.
I'm trying to build a balance.
-Atmosphere, Seven's Travels
Welcome to build a balance! My name is Amanda Marie and I'm 22 years old -- you know, that scary
age when you have to start figuring out what your "real life" is
going to be all about.
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Carpe Diem was
always my mantra. Seize the
pleasures of the moment without concern for the future.
But the future is
starting to come at me like a big sack of bricks and I’m thinking it’s about
time I get a little more concerned--while still having a great time of course.
This is where
building a balance comes in.
In the midst of
internships, senior year of college and heading into grad school, I wanted to
create an outlet to balance my thoughts and ensure fun and creativity still has
a space to thrive.
Come along with me
as I try to find my balance. Maybe along the way I can help to build yours
too.
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